I am not looking forward to driving to work in this rain. It hasn’t rained this hard in a long while…end of story.
All I Wanted Was You
Think of me when you’re out, when you’re out there.
I’ll beg you nice from my knees.
And when the world treats you way to fairly
Well it’s a shame I’m a dream.
All I wanted was you.
I think I’ll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
And wake up early to black and white re-runs
That escape from my mouth.
All I wanted was you.
I could follow you to the beginning
Just to relive the start
And maybe then we’ll remember to slow down
At all of our favorite parts.
All I wanted was you.
All I wanted was you.
-Paramore
You liked this song, you probably don’t remember…but I do. Just remember that all I really wanted was you.
Misguided Ghosts
I am going away for a while
But I’ll be back, don’t try to follow me
‘cause I’ll return as soon as possible.
See, I’m trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe.
We all learn to make mistakes
And run from them, from them
With no direction.
We’ll run from them, from them
With no conviction.
‘Cause I’m just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly.
Don’t need no roads
In fact they follow me.
And we just go in circles.
But now I’m told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it.
Would someone care to classify
A broken heart and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on
And run to them, to them
Full speed ahead.
Oh, you are not useless.
We are just misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly.
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away.
And there’s no one road,
We should not be the same.
But I’m just a ghost
And still they echo me
They echo me in circles.
-Paramore
Love Today!
Decided to finally get my butt in gear! I did two back to back hours of yoga this morning…so incredibly relaxing! It’s nice to not think of anything besides body alignment for two hours. I feel like a new person, refreshed and happy!
Now I’m watching Center Stage <3 while doing a gnarly arm, ab, and leg workout…I’m gonna be crazy sore tomorrow but I love it so it’s gonna be worth it…or atleast it better be.
A whole day of just working on a better me…because I definitely deserve it :D
Did yoga last night for the first time in two months! It felt so ridiculously nice, I feel like I’m addicted to it all over again. I can’t wait to go again. It’s a good work out and it clears my mind because I focus on yoga instead of every other crazy and stupid thing going on in my life right now.
I can’t wait for monday! My first ballet class in almost ten years! I’m nervous and excited all in one…but it’ll be more than worth it because I still love it after all these years. And I bet I’ll trip and fall all over myself.
I’m gonna start cracking down on my parkour training too, it’s time to get my butt in gear! My friend and I are gonna start training for American Ninja Warrior too, the two things kinda go hand in hand for us. Will be fun!!!
Loving my life right now, you don’t even know.
I’ll Stand My Ground
Placate my dreams especially in the desuetude. In the final dregs we find our sinew. I grapple with myself to be superior over the person I was before. I am better, I am quicker, I am stronger, in my mind, in my heart, and in my body. I feel the influence I am procuring through understanding who I was, who I am, and who I want to be. There was no slowing me, there is no restraining me, there will be no obstructing me. I have no off switch, I will never tire until my goals are reached, my dreams realised. The blood that flows through my veins is pure and good. I will never falter, never fade, never forget.
The truth is that I’m a bad person. But, that’s gonna change - I’m going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. Now I’m cleaning up and I’m moving on, going straight and choosing life. I’m looking forward to it already. I’m gonna be just like you. The job, the family, the fucking big television. The washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electric tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisure wear, luggage, three piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing gutters, getting by, looking ahead, the day you die.
Trainspotting <3<3<3
Catching Up On The Things That I Love…
Not in any specific order:
-Best friends & sisters
-Music
-Painting
-Photography
-Good books
-Movies
-Strawberry shakes
-Hello Kitty
-How I Met Your Mother
-Rain
-Traveling
-Disneyland
-Tiki Tenders & Big Wave w/ cheese turkey burgers
-Shopping
-Coca Cola
-Love letters
-Pearls
-Blue bells
-Teapots
-French toast
Time to Heal
The time is passing
Ever so slow now.
When you’re near me
I just don’t know how
You don’t understand me
But know how to console.
When I’m in your arms
There’s only one final goal.
Our sun was rising
But now it’s setting,
What that means for us
There’s no forgetting.
Decisions, decisions
On my part and yours.
Can you throw me away
When there are no more wars
To be fought between us?
I just need some time
To figure out everything
Going on in my mind.
I can no longer be rushed,
No longer be pushed.
I’m not as strong as you think,
I break and I’m crushed.
I will heal in time
Then you won’t even know me.
I’ll be back as myself
But I’ve got to be ready.
You’ll tell me you missed me
But will that be true?
And when it’s all over
Will I still matter to you?
-Me
